Life Reset

Well, apparently this will be my first, first post in this "new" blog.

Hi, how are you guys doing? I hope everyone's doing well. Honestly, I don't know where to start, but let's start around this month last year.

September, 2025.

Due to unforeseen circumstances and emergency calls, I had to go back home for a while. Of course I had to hastily pack my stuff, be it in the luggage or in the cargo packs I had to prepare. Space was limited, while my stuff seemed infinite, so I had to prioritise. Lots left behind, lots given away. Shoes, clothes, jackets, bags, home appliances. Things I amassed practically half of my life.

Thankfully the travel back home was without any hiccups. Good food along the way, especially during transit where I had fried cikin with biryani. Stuff was gold, never thought such combination worked really well. The flight, as usual, pretty calm because I slept my ass all the way.

Though the disaster came right when I had my transit in Jakarta. I lost a part of my life, probably one of the most important. And I realised it almost a week after the transit.

I lost my camera. I lost my Ricoh GR IIIx. Most likely it fell when I try to take my Steam Deck out of the backpack. Totally my fault, wasn't careful enough. Hard to, though, after traveling non-stop for more than 24 hours. Oh well, still have my other cameras.

As the time went by, I slowly but surely played with whatever cards I was dealt with. Rebuilding my life again, brick by brick. At this point, I absolutely have no idea what happened in between. All I know is, all of a sudden, my plan changed, my life went on a rail that had been decided prior to my own existence. While there is nothing to complain about, the change is way too sudden and the train is going way too fast.

Fast forward to today. September 2026.

The train has been relatively stabilised, life going really well. Until I can't open my server. Well I can, but nothing's there. Not a single software nor file.

Heart sank, knees dropped, mind blank.

Everything is gone. Everything. Every. Single. Thing.

All my musics, photos, projects, documents including Zeugnisse, transcripts, residence permits, medical record, certificates, and everything in between. All papers and researches, studying material, and thesis. A project that has been going on, non-stop, everyday, since 2019 until now. Including the blog I have been maintained since 2011. Yes, this blog was started on 2011. Yes every single posts are gone now.

Practically I lost my whole life, or at least my life and everything inside it in the last 15 years.

You might wonder, how me, of all person, not have a backup. Well, I had one, one which I turned of for a moment moments before the incident happened. I've had this server for about 10 years, nothing ever happened before, turned off the backup once in a while as well. But as they say, problem happens when you give them a space to happen. Anything that can go wrong will go wrong, I guess.

After a depressive week with a thought of not deploying anything on the server ever again and abandoning everything, then another week reflecting of what happened, not just to the server but also my life in the past year, I thought this might be a good occasion to do everything from 0 again. Starting from where everything started, with new vision, new plan, new insights, new mindset, new way of doing things. It might be scary, it might be hard, it might not go as planned, but if I don't do anything, if I don't pick myself up, then what's the point of living?

When life gives you lemon, throw it back, ask for a tangerine, cold-press it, then drink it until the last drop.